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dreamer adam dreamer adam!!!

[threesecrets]

[Inviting Adam to the Barns, showing him the house that he'd grown up in, the sleeping dreamthings left behind by his dreamer-father, the lonely room where Ronan curled up to dream; it wasn't really a date, of course. Mostly because a date required the acknowledgement of both parties, and Ronan had no intention of actually telling Parrish that he was interested in him, that this was... something.

But Parrish was a dreamer too, which meant that he understood the pieces in the blanks, the things that Ronan didn't say- or maybe Ronan just wasn't nearly so subtle as he wanted to be.

Is this supposed to be a date?

And Ronan flusters, his pale skin flushes so that there's pink color that heats along his cheekbones. And he almost looks angry -- but of course Ronan almost always looks that way, especially when you push at him. But he doesn't lash out at Adam, doesn't push back or deny it. He just sort of sharply shrugs his shoulders as he puts away the piece of a dream that he'd hoped would wake his father's fairy cows. And there had been something, but it wasn't enough- not to keep Matthew awake.]

I dunno, man. Who the fuck else would I show this stuff to?

[As if he didn't have a bestfriend that would eat this up- and ask fifty questions that Ronan didn't particularly want to field. He wanted someone that understood: that understood him. And the question he tosses at Parrish wasn't a no, of course. Both because he wasn't going to lie and because in truth he didn't want to say no, not really. It was just that the idea of saying yes was even more unnerving.

After losing Kavinsky he'd first been more reckless with himself: careless to the point that Gansey and Declan had both been afraid he'd put himself into the ER or worse. But now he was- something else. A little quieter, a little afraid of being alone, of being the only dreamer. Which wasn't why he was attracted to Adam. He'd been captivated for months before they'd known about each other. But it made him a little more afraid of pushing him away. Because if he accepted that he had to stay alive, then he wanted at least one person in the world that understood him, since the other was dead (it still felt like he'd killed him).

He didn't feel like he deserved it, but he wanted this all the same. He wanted Adam Parrish, wanted to hold his hand and kiss him in the dark before they fell asleep, wanted to show him his dreams, what they could dream together. He wondered if this was how Kavinsky had felt.

But he puts on his best smile, grinning at him sideways, trying to pull up his bravado like armor;]

Do you want this to be a date?

[forleaving]

[He gave Ronan a knowing look. They both knew exactly who else Ronan could show this stuff to. He didn't call him out on it, though. It felt special that he'd chosen Adam, like it meant something more than it seemed to on the surface. It felt like it meant something that Ronan hadn't really deflected, too, that he didn't lash out. All the same, Adam knew he was going to have to tread carefully because Ronan was prone to flinching away from things when they became overwhelming or just- all he had to do was think about what had happened with Kavinsky. Adam might not have known both sides of the story but he knew that Ronan had flinched away from him.

He didn't want that to happen here.]

What if I do?

[It wasn't a challenge; it was soft and thoughtful, his eyes flickering back to Ronan and studying him quietly.

It might not have been a conventional date but there wasn't much that was conventional about Ronan Lynch, Adam thought. Conventional boys didn't pull things out of their dreams. The same could be said for Adam. He'd always been so careful about what he took from his dreams, the things he made into reality, because he hadn't been raised the same way Ronan had. He hadn't had a safe place or parents who understood. Most of the time, he didn't think his parents understood him at all and they thought he was just a normal boy.

Did he deserve Ronan? Was Adam capable of loving someone? He knew he was getting ahead of himself thinking about love already but it would inevitably come up if Ronan said this was a date. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but eventually.]

It's not like I would mind.

[Which...wasn't exactly what he meant. He wasn't opposed to the idea. In fact, he wanted it desperately. He'd been looking at Ronan for a while and maybe it had something to do with them both being dreamers or maybe they would have been drawn together no matter what. He used to wonder how Gansey could be friends with Ronan because he was an asshole but here, in this place, he understood. Or he thought he did, at least.]