[Adam made a quiet noise, not because he was surprised that Ronan'd had dark thoughts like that, but because just the idea of losing him was almost too much to bear, even if it sounded like it was in the past. He didn't want to imagine a life without Ronan in it. He meant more to Adam than he'd been able to really put into words thus far, but he was so important to him.]

I'm glad you chose to live.

[His words were soft, gentle. The opposite of choosing to give up and die was choosing to live, after all, and Ronan had to have actively made that decision.]

Nothing would be the same without you. I wouldn't be the same.

[Kavinsky though, was a slightly more difficult topic. Not because Adam disliked him that much, but because he didn't want Ronan to keep blaming himself for what had happened. It was a complicated situation, and it seemed easy to throw around blame, but that wouldn't help anyone.]

Would telling him about Cabeswater and the ley lines have made him change his mind? You couldn't have known how close he was to- to breaking. People make mistakes, but you can't carry the burden of those feelings forever.

[He knew Ronan probably wished he could reverse time to go back and change things, but there was nothing to be done about it. Dwelling on things would only make the wound worse.

Taking a breath, he rubbed his palm along Ronan's spine. It hurt him to see him cry. Ronan was fierce and wonderful, but he had a soft heart. A good heart. Adam knew he would have never wished for Kavinsky to do what he'd done, in the end. He'd probably thought he had more time, just like everyone else.]